I can’t find a job.
Well I could but there doesn’t seem to be any jobs that fit.
Or if there are I can’t find them. (But I don’t think so)
The biggest problem is that I live in estonia and it seems there really isn’t a well-developed anarchist/socialist/syndicalist movement here. The IWW doesn’t have a branch and searching online doesn’t really yield any results (aside from a couple of socdem groups),
I don’t know how to search for a job that isn’t just doing menial labour for some company.
I would like to work for a global fully-remote anarchically managed tech syndicate. But I don’t think those exist and I imagine starting one is incredibly difficult. (Well starting it wouldn’t be difficult, but finding people capable and willing to work for something like that, while getting enough income, is.)
At the end of the day the means dictate the ends. Looking for a job in a capitalist way is going to land you with a capitalist job. I need to look for a job in a anarchist/socialist/syndicalist way, but how do you do that in an environment where those ideas aren’t widespread?
You’re running into the issues behind prefiguration, or the idea that the kernel of the new world can and must be practiced in the world of the old.
Simply put, a girl’s gotta eat. You can and should work towards a better world, and engage with the theoretical traditions and backbones which have brought about great advancements in human dignity; but you also need to lay a working foundation for yourself to succeed well enough in life.
We struggle to make a better world not because the current world is full of people who simply don’t know better and could choose to do something easier and more convenient for them (I.e. a syndicalist workplace, etc); but because we are at war with the ruling classes of our country who use every trick in the book to impoverish our people and the people of the world. It will take much more to win against them than finding the right job; it takes mass organization and strategy which is something you’re best equipped to engage on when you’re in a more stable place.
This sounds typical but I recommend investing yourself into a career, either trades or college, and engaging with mass protest movements in your area like Palestine Solidarity movements at this time. That would be more practical for being able to create a new world.